I am waiving my "no gushing" clause for the next few minutes. Please bare with me.
I could name a million reasons as to why I am so lucky to have ever met Jesse, I don't even know where to start. Our relationship is hard to explain because I don't know how to talk about how perfect it is without sounding like I'm exaggerating. I know there aren't soul mates in the world but I also know that he is the best possible man I could have ever met. He brought everything to the table that I ever could have asked for in a guy.
I remember thinking about Jesse after our first few dates and getting very frustrated because I couldn't tell what the feelings were that I had. It was a feeling where I could look at him and never find fault and I could talk to him and never find anything annoying about the conversation or wish that I was having the conversation with someone else. I just loved his presence and the way I felt when he would drop me off at home, it was like part of me slowly began feeling complete and the time we spent together was so...wholesome.
I fell in love with all the dumb little things and it was all part of the process of falling in love with him completely; like when I first saw his tattoos at a church ball game and when we went and played a game of horse at my work after we made dinner together. I remember the first time we met and he started scratching my back and I told him he was my new best friend but what I wanted to say was "please marry me"....but it was a little soon. I look back to the very beginning and I think about how precisely everything happened and how it had to happen that way in order for us to be where we are today.
Jesse had to have had a script on how to date me. Everything we did was on his terms and his agenda but he still somehow made it all about me and made me feel like I was the only person that mattered. I know that is something he will do throughout our entire life and it is one of the things I love the most about him, that things will be on his terms and I am along for the ride as his support system and there is never a point in time where I will go unloved or unheard. The best way he put it was when he said that he is the boss, but I am Mrs. boss.
I am so grateful to have Jesse in my life. I am grateful for the times where we have laughed our butts off over something that happened at 1 in the morning and we were so tired that it truly is the funniest thing or when he doesn't know how to book a flight correctly..and he does not think it is as funny as I do but he still lets me laugh anyway. I am so grateful for the cards he randomly sends me and for the time we went to the temple and just sat outside of it while we talked about the day we get to go inside of it. I am grateful for his testimony and that he is the one to take me to the temple. I am grateful that he has all the backbone in the world and that he is strong and when he makes a decision he doesn't change his mind. I am grateful that he made the decision to ask me on a date 5 1/2 months ago and that he made the decision to let it progress and asked me to marry him a week ago.
I could name a million reasons as to why I am so lucky to have ever met Jesse, I don't even know where to start. Our relationship is hard to explain because I don't know how to talk about how perfect it is without sounding like I'm exaggerating. I know there aren't soul mates in the world but I also know that he is the best possible man I could have ever met. He brought everything to the table that I ever could have asked for in a guy.
I remember thinking about Jesse after our first few dates and getting very frustrated because I couldn't tell what the feelings were that I had. It was a feeling where I could look at him and never find fault and I could talk to him and never find anything annoying about the conversation or wish that I was having the conversation with someone else. I just loved his presence and the way I felt when he would drop me off at home, it was like part of me slowly began feeling complete and the time we spent together was so...wholesome.
I fell in love with all the dumb little things and it was all part of the process of falling in love with him completely; like when I first saw his tattoos at a church ball game and when we went and played a game of horse at my work after we made dinner together. I remember the first time we met and he started scratching my back and I told him he was my new best friend but what I wanted to say was "please marry me"....but it was a little soon. I look back to the very beginning and I think about how precisely everything happened and how it had to happen that way in order for us to be where we are today.
Jesse had to have had a script on how to date me. Everything we did was on his terms and his agenda but he still somehow made it all about me and made me feel like I was the only person that mattered. I know that is something he will do throughout our entire life and it is one of the things I love the most about him, that things will be on his terms and I am along for the ride as his support system and there is never a point in time where I will go unloved or unheard. The best way he put it was when he said that he is the boss, but I am Mrs. boss.
I am so grateful to have Jesse in my life. I am grateful for the times where we have laughed our butts off over something that happened at 1 in the morning and we were so tired that it truly is the funniest thing or when he doesn't know how to book a flight correctly..and he does not think it is as funny as I do but he still lets me laugh anyway. I am so grateful for the cards he randomly sends me and for the time we went to the temple and just sat outside of it while we talked about the day we get to go inside of it. I am grateful for his testimony and that he is the one to take me to the temple. I am grateful that he has all the backbone in the world and that he is strong and when he makes a decision he doesn't change his mind. I am grateful that he made the decision to ask me on a date 5 1/2 months ago and that he made the decision to let it progress and asked me to marry him a week ago.
(not his baby ps)I am grateful for everything that he has done in his life that led him to where he is and made him the person that I would fall totally and completely in love with.
5 comments:
i love this post. kinda funny to hear it coming from you though;) haha
<3 this mrs boss :)
If I had a soul I would be bawling right now, Amber. I am so beyond happy for you. I knew that there was the perfect one who would finally deserve you, and now I know that it is him. You are so exceptionally great, and beautiful, and I cannot wait to see you in that beautiful dress walking out of the temple with the boss.
This is a very, very, very happy post :) It's weird, we've never met and all we know of each other is how we interact through social media, but I can tell that he is the best person for you and for that reason - I am absolutely thrilled for you! The way you describe your relationship sounds like what I'm looking for (if I didn't make that clear in my pathetic post this week.....). I wish I could be there for your big day, I would definitely try to make the trip if I wasn't most likely going to be in Paris. So here's to you guys and a lifetime of laughing your guts out :)
xoxo
yayayayayay. sooo happy for you. that's all.
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