Serious Question

Recently my equally as good half happened to mention that I have a lot of posts on here that are along the lines of spring flings, theories that are lies, and a lot of other posts that made me wince a little when I read them (oh 2009, how I do not miss you).

So here is the debate- do I start a new blog, after I wed, that's more of an "us" blog and let this one go or do I keep this one and just revamp it?

I cannot decide and it is driving me crazy.

Multiple Personalities

Out in the midwest (maybe not all the midwest..but maybe) it's challenging to find people that share the same....sense of humor as the rest of the world. I don't know how else to put that. It's not that they don't have one but it's that there's is only funny to them. So when you meet someone that totally gets you, it's awesome!

I am walking in the direction of a guy (probably 65+) at the gym-

guy: *whispers something*
Me: *look at guy*
guy: *looks back, sheepishly*...."sorry, sometimes I talk to myself...actually all the time..."
Me: "oh yeah, I do it all the time, too"
guy: *starts walking away then pauses and looks at me* "Ya know I really have the best conversations when I do! It's the best. And you never get in an argument!"

I love it when I can relate.

I have met my match

I am waiving my "no gushing" clause for the next few minutes. Please bare with me.

I could name a million reasons as to why I am so lucky to have ever met Jesse, I don't even know where to start. Our relationship is hard to explain because I don't know how to talk about how perfect it is without sounding like I'm exaggerating. I know there aren't soul mates in the world but I also know that he is the best possible man I could have ever met. He brought everything to the table that I ever could have asked for in a guy.

I remember thinking about Jesse after our first few dates and getting very frustrated because I couldn't tell what the feelings were that I had. It was a feeling where I could look at him and never find fault and I could talk to him and never find anything annoying about the conversation or wish that I was having the conversation with someone else. I just loved his presence and the way I felt when he would drop me off at home, it was like part of me slowly began feeling complete and the time we spent together was so...wholesome.

I fell in love with all the dumb little things and it was all part of the process of falling in love with him completely; like when I first saw his tattoos at a church ball game and when we went and played a game of horse at my work after we made dinner together. I remember the first time we met and he started scratching my back and I told him he was my new best friend but what I wanted to say was "please marry me"....but it was a little soon. I look back to the very beginning and I think about how precisely everything happened and how it had to happen that way in order for us to be where we are today.

Jesse had to have had a script on how to date me. Everything we did was on his terms and his agenda but he still somehow made it all about me and made me feel like I was the only person that mattered. I know that is something he will do throughout our entire life and it is one of the things I love the most about him, that things will be on his terms and I am along for the ride as his support system and there is never a point in time where I will go unloved or unheard. The best way he put it was when he said that he is the boss, but I am Mrs. boss.

I am so grateful to have Jesse in my life. I am grateful for the times where we have laughed our butts off over something that happened at 1 in the morning and we were so tired that it truly is the funniest thing or when he doesn't know how to book a flight correctly..and he does not think it is as funny as I do but he still lets me laugh anyway. I am so grateful for the cards he randomly sends me and for the time we went to the temple and just sat outside of it while we talked about the day we get to go inside of it. I am grateful for his testimony and that he is the one to take me to the temple. I am grateful that he has all the backbone in the world and that he is strong and when he makes a decision he doesn't change his mind. I am grateful that he made the decision to ask me on a date 5 1/2 months ago and that he made the decision to let it progress and asked me to marry him a week ago.

(not his baby ps)

I am grateful for everything that he has done in his life that led him to where he is and made him the person that I would fall totally and completely in love with.

......there is a pulse

Summer so far summer has been nothing short of awesome. I know that only three people read this but I do feel like I have a little bit betrayed my blends.

Last week I was able to make a last minute trip out to Canada to see my mom's side of the family. It was great to spend time with my cousins (mainly just Kiki and Rob). In the town that my mom grew up in they always do a parade on the 1st of July (Canada's independance day) and then have a rodeo. Before the rodeo there is always a family barbecue and I wish I had snapped some photos of that just you could be more entertained. On our way back from Canada Tyler, Katy, Reagan, and I took the scenic route and went to Mt. Rushmore and bear country. Anyway, summer has been amazing so far but none of my pictures are sending (and my sister never sent me the other ones ehem) so this blog just became 85% less exciting that I had anticipated.


In the mean time I am going to pick up my beloved from the airport. Stay tuned for the next post...I have anxious butterflies just thinking about it, really.